>> Tuesday, July 11, 2006
6:43 AM
I totally shouldn't be blogging right now.because I totally don't have the right too after play SIMS 2 University.
HINTHINT: to someone: I WANT THAT SMILIE next to my name!
-_______________-
okay thank goodness you'll never figure out who I'm talking about. Oh my gosh, this is so cool. Francis was moaning for a boyfriend - go read Nat's blog.
ahhhhhh
MY TEAMMATES KEEP TEASING ME ABOUT MY PRONOUNCIATION.
it's so irritating, so difficult to talk to them. I shall shut up from now. They keep going on and on about it.
and I KNOW I SUCK AT THAT MOUTH GAME. arghh. lol
I'm so awfully... sian. -___________-
though I've tons of work to do.
and guess what. I saw TECK SOON today. Oh my gosh, I totally freak out, in case you guys don't know who he is, he's from my primary school and used to stalk me and I got really really freaked out like totally.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I like debates. hahahha
and I had a lonely lunch but with my nice lovely book and I don't feel like doing any work and I wish I can socialize with my teammates more but like kinda weird cause everyone has everyone and I wish I could finish all my tests fast and I wish I could be a bit more studious so that I wont screw up all the time and I wish I don't use f-words because I just wanted to get a reaction out of some people and I wish I never do that cause it's damn mean and I wish I could be more patient with people and I wish I could be a nicer person because I'm damn mean and I wish that I could treat the world like before and be all sunny about everything and I wish I don't have to be so emo and sensitive cause I am and I wish I don't bad words because it destroys my life and I wish I'm a nice fat pig.
=D i miss RYANNN. and GRACCEEE and HUANNGGG and and TENNGGHUII.
maybe I should transfer to anglician. just kidding. :P
>> Monday, July 10, 2006
2:39 AM
I think I am going crazy.The day started as nicely cold with the entire area wet due to the downpour the night before. I was feeling awful though I kept telling myself this is not the way to look upon school. I should be a nice positive person. So I took a warm shower and got ready for school, feeling extremely accomplished since I managed to wake up at 5.37am this morning.
Sleep didn't come easily these days. I think I'm seriously suffering from insomia, even the nice-smelling candles from Melbourne didn't work at all.
Everything was going fine in school until CME where I forgot to bring my book and had to stand for the rest of the period. Not that I cared which was rather unusual since I always cared when I was punished. But there I was, leaning against the table, random things flashing across my head, half-listening to Mdm Tye. I mean she's quite interesting with the nice stories and making effort to try to get me involved which was weird since most of the time, I am involved, but I guess I was just dazed?
And guess what? After that I had a breakdown when lesson ended. Thank goodness nobody noticed, that is except Mdm Tye herself. I was like pretending to sleep and was so relieved when I heard her heels chop chop off. There were a few students left in the classroom and I was like breaking down and nobody bothered which was exactly what I wanted until Mdm Tye returned and started questioning me.
I guess maybe it was kinda nice that someone bothered to ask how you feel.
Perhaps it's just a teacher thing.
My breakdowns are getting more and more often and that is so scary. I don't wanna be suffering from some mild depression or something and I do not have low-self esteem so there's no reason for any thing wrong with my mental health. No reason; nada.
But the thing is that I can't stop myself from feeling sad. Even when I laugh, there is only temporary happiness but I guess there's nothing really happy about my school life. I mean I sound so awfully self-pitying here and I know I'm not as unfortunate as though kids in Africa but there is seriously nothing very happy about my school life.
I betrayed my only best friend (make that ex best friend) and got so pissed when I had no reason to. I didn't realise that I was the one at wrong until recently, can you imagine how horrible I am? All along I thought I was kinda nice, until I realise I'm just living in self-denial(my email address is so right). When I realise this, it's all to late. Maybe you think that while writing this, I'm actually hoping for my ex best friend to come back, well... I am but I'm not hoping for so much. You become an evil person so that's what you get. I believe in that and other people have lives to care about and if they deserve happiness, don't cling on, because you are just a burden.
And then, I hurt and lose all my good friends. I just screw up big time. Yup, it's kinda sad but people don't forget all the bad things you do to them. They forgive yes, but they'll always remember at least a part of it.
But the saddest thing is that well... I really miss everyone and I was never lonely then because I know there's always someone to rely on.
I realise people move on after being neglected for so long. When you are not aware, these good friends will just slowly slip away from your life. I didn't see it coming until they completely walk out of your 'close' friend zone.
I guess this is just a part of life isn't it? God brings in people and brings them out to make you understand something and now I know I shouldn't screw up so much later on. I'm just like what my MYUK bag say, spoilt rotten. I don't go the extra mile for friends and instead hurt them mercilessly because I was furious. I get jealous when I can't have what I want and don't cherish what I have.
It's all so stupid.
Perhaps right now, you read this and think that I'm emo crap but hey, guess what I'm a mess and so... maybe I get the 'right' to be emotional? Perhaps right now, you realise that I am talking about you in this entry and you are happy because I finally realise I screw up so badly?
I know I have God and thank Him that I do.
because He was somehow there always.
And I would like to shoutout to my ex-close friends:
I'm sorry.
>> Saturday, July 08, 2006
9:24 AM
OUT OF THE WINDOW. 
huge apples, doncha think?
THE FIRST BITE.
the halloween apple.
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9:17 AM
Fire at CASINO HOTELL. 
Happy on the train.
Dao on the train.
Dao-er on the train.
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9:14 AM
max and I at the airportt--- 
Kennethh and MAX.
Go go go! guess how we took this picture =D :
Begger on the streets. -_____-
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9:08 AM
my sister and I! in singapore---
second sale of the DAY! funfair! ---
YUANMEII'S BIRTHDAY!
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8:47 AM
Wahaha I’m blogging from Melbourne while all you people are back in Singapore having school. =D Although I do know that once I return to Singapore, I would have to do a lot of catching up. Bleahh but let me just enjoy Melbourne for the time being. Anyway, the weather is so fine. I love it. It’s like air con everywhere. Wheee even the CARPARK is cold and nice. (: so far I haven’t been to many places but I have shopped quite a lot.On SUNDAY NIGHT, I took off from Singapore to Melbourne; 7 hours journey. I’m so touched by my cell group members, Kenneth, Wei Lin and Maxcelin. They waited with me for my flight and then sent me off with a nice package of snacks saying that if I got hungry, I could eat them. Awwww.
On MONDAY MORNING, touched down in Melbourne. I had a pleasant time sleeping on the plane and the food (pasta) was excellent but I didn’t fully utilize the stuff on the plane because I only managed to watch one movie, Casnova or something like that. My mummy fetched me from the airport. Wheee.
Fell asleep and woke up.
My sister brought me out for today since my mum was having lunch with Uncle Tee. (another boss of a travel agency in Melbourne) We went to Melbourne Central and it was kinda fun I guess. I bought so many new stuff and this really cool school bag. Whhheeo. (: I met Kwan’s (my sister’s best friend) and her mother. Wahahhaaha. She’s a very small girl but I expected someone even smaller, thank goodness she wasn’t that small.
Then we went to CROWN CASINO hotel where we played parapara. Wahahha It was fun and it soon became hot but it wasn’t too long. (:
On TUESDAY MORNING, went to auntie Ally’s house. The house is gigantic. I don’t mind living there. (: Then we went to box hill area to eat Chinese food. Hot and sour SZECHUAN noodles. It was their signature dish and it was really good. My sister ordered the spicy one; I thought it was not bad though I would never admit it aloud since… I don’t know. =D
We bought some really cheap clothing at box hill and they were really nice too. It was all on discount. You see, it’s kinda like some GREAT MELBOURNE SALE so everything was so cheap. However, there were few skirts since it is winter. Boooness. I like Melbourne! =D I shall study here one day. It’s not as scary as I thought it would be. Hahaha
Today is Wednesday. I wonder how everyone is. Well… today I had a lot of free time. And I woke up quite early, about nine? Then read Romeo and Juliet until it bored me back to sleep. Wheee then woke up about one again to eat lunch with uncle Sam and mum at this malay restaurant which sold very good laksa but then again, the laksa was like… not spicy at all but whatever. Then I was allowed free time and I went all over the place in the city. I forgot to go to the library boohoo. The entire area was on sale! HAHAH but I found no suitable books at the bookstores though I did find some nice accessories at COTTON ON which were seriously on sale. It was like from 16 dollars to 2 dollars only. Wheeho.
Then ate at another Chinese restaurant for dinner with my sister and mum. Shopped around after that, then went back to my sister’s apartment. I was kinda disappointed that we didn’t catch the movie since my sister didn’t feel like watching so we couldn’t. Bleahh. Perhaps when I’m older, I’ll be able to be more independent from others. I can’t keep not doing the things I want when people don’t feel like it. But oh well… I’m only fourteen, what to do?
So now I’m back in the apartment and I’ve just finished watching THE BIGGEST LOSER SPECIAL EDITION. Some engaged couples episode. I felt kinda guilty sitting there with all my fats budging out of my pants and eating nice pizza while some people slogged their hearts out trying to get slim. Booo. It’s amazing how they lose about 30 over kilograms within 6 months. I’m impressed; thoroughly.
Ahhhh. WHEN IS MY SISTER GOING TO LET ME USE THE INTERNET?! I need to check my homework. Siann. I don’t dare to remind her since she might start going all pissed-off at me and even though I’m not particularly in love with my sister; I don’t like to see anyone pissed off especially when the main reason is me. =D I’m a good girl you see, I don’t mind people being annoyed though. (:
AH TA.
HEH. i'm baaack in singapore! (:
>> Wednesday, June 21, 2006
7:22 PM
#1 Full name? Ashleen Ang alias Ngion Athena Ashleen#2 Name backwards? neelhsa anehta noign alias gna neelhsa
#3 Were you named after anyone? yeah my sister. damnit.
#4 Meaning of name? it means ME.
#5 Nickname? ashy, ashhy, ashyyy, ashy washy, ice-cream, chocolate etc.
#6 Screen name? -ashhy. [ -- blood type O! perfect match (this quiz is very ma fan leh)
#7 Date of birth? 18 january 1992
#8 Place of birth? singapore.
#9 Nationality? Singaporean
#10 Current location? I don't need anymore stalkers thank you.
#11 Star sign? Capricorn (and I'm proud of it!)
#12 Religion? Christianity (but I guess it's more of a relationship with God as Jasmine and Pst. Kong ALWAYS quotes haha)
#13 Height? I want a 169 or something but I think I'm like 162?
#14 Weight? heavy.
#15 Shoe size? the chen lili class stupid ballet shoes, size 8. small feet. =D
#16 Hair colour? I would like to think raven black but it's like super dark brown.
#17 Eye colour? dark brown.
#18 What do you look like? ASHLEEN ANG. (isn't that a revelation and I'm telling you, NOBODY looks like me!)
#19 Innie or outie? introvert or extrovert? EXTROVERT. (even the word tells you that)
#20 Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous? RIGHTY.
#21 Gay, straight, bi, or other? I dont need a stupid quiz to prove my sexuality.
#22 Best friends? TEAMMATES! and Jasmine and Phoebe
#23 Best friend you trust the most? Phoebe!
#24 Favourite pals: Cell group members, TEAMMATES,
#25 Best friends of the opposite sex? Er, I have no idea HOHO.
#26 Best buddies? the computer and television screen and DVD player.
#27 Boyfriend or girlfriend? I'M A GIRLFRIEND DAMNIT. I'm a girl? -________-
#28 Crush? as I've said before there's no ELIGIBLE male around.
#29 Parents? hahha. the person who created this quiz, obviously has nothing to ask. -_________-
#30 Worst enemy:? satan.
#31 Favorite on-line guys? Hoho.
#32 Favorite on-line girls? Beehiang (she always greets me) Sarah Por (she brightens my day with her CAPTIAL LETTERS)
#33 Funniest friend? RYAN SEAH.
#34 Craziest friend? it has to be ANNJIE. (she's crazy)
#35 Advice friend? too many to name.
#36 Loudest friend? PRISCILLA. hahhaha
#37 Person you cry with? GOD.
#38 Any sisters? Yes. unfortunately.
#39 Any brothers? No. sadly.
#40 Any pets? I had a hamster then it died one month later. I had a dog, gave it away because it was WAYYY too hyper.
#41 A disease? Yup. I have a like-to-kill-people disease
#42 A pager? no.
#43 A personal phone line? Is my hp counted?
#44 A cell phone? yeahh. new phone somemore. HAHAHH
#45 A lava lamp? no. you can't read with that type of light.
#46 A pool or hot tub? hot tub.
#47 A car? I want a apple green beetle.
#48 Personality? haha.
#49 Driving? no. I drive those at the arcade though, I'm quite good at it in fact.
#50 Car or one you want? APPLE GREEN BEETLE. GET IT?
#51 Room? yes.
#52 What's missing? I can't remember.
#53 School? Nanyang
#54 Bed? yes
#55 Relationship with your parents? quite good I guess.
#56 Believe in yourself: DUH.
#57 Do you believe in love at first sight? Perhaps.
#58 Consider yourself a good listener: okay la.
QN #59 IS MISSING AHHAHAH!
#60 Get along with your parents? yup
#61 Save your e-mail conversations? yup, but I don't post it like somebody. *coughbeehiangcough*
#62 Pray? Yup.
#63 Believe in reincarnation? no.
#64 Like to make fun of people? hahah DUH. what's life without that.
#65 Like to talk on the phone? when in good mood.
#66 Want to get married? GUESS SO.
#67 Like to drive? YUP!
#68 Get motion sickness? NOPE. I can READ and SLEEP on cars and bus, jealous? =D Add in do homework too.
#69 Eat the stems of broccoli? I don't eat broccoli.
#70 Eat chicken fingers with a fork? What's that?
#71 Dream in color? what nonsense is the person asking
#72 Type with your fingers on home row? huh?
#73 Sleep with a stuffed animal? No. I have to kick everything off or I won't sleep.
#74 Right next to you? CPU and funfair plans
#75 On the walls of your room? Photos and a softboard
#76 On your mouse pad? no mouse pad.
#77 Your dream car? how many times do you need to repeat.
#78 Your dream date? I'll know it when I have it.
.#79 Your dream honeymoon spot? ITALY. definitely.
#80 Your dream husband or wife? Meet my husband next time.
#81 Your bedtime? 10 or 10.30 on school days.
#82 Under your bed? another bed and lotsa rubbish.
#83 The single most important question? can't think of any. THIS FREAKIN QUIZ TAKES A LOT TIME YOU KNOW.
#84 Your bad time of the day? when I have bad mood swings.
#85 Your worst fears? you think i'll announce it?
#86 The weather is? nice.
#87 The time? 10.49am
#88 The date? 22 june (JUST MY LUCK OPENS TODAY)
#89 The best trick you ever played on someone? it has to be the crying one with ALINA TAN. and the one with HUANG about GRACE GOING TO INDIA. HAHAHA
#90 The weirdest food or drink that you like? baby octopus. it's lovely, trust me.
#91 Theme song? INUYASHA's every heart and dearest.
#92 The hardest thing about growing up? growing up.
#93 Your funniest experience? too many to count.
#94 Your scariest moment? that time in pri 4 I had to say the pledge.
#95 The silliest thing you've said? CAN'T REMEMBER.
#96 The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? CAN'T REMEMBER.
#97 The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s)? CAN'T REMEMBER!
#98 The worst feeling in the world? HAVING TO DO SOMETHING BUT DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING IT.
#99 The best feeling in the world? SATISIFACTION..
#100 5 people to do this quiz? SABO TIME! I don't know leh. so many people do quizeezes. hahah byebye
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7:10 PM
heh. I sooooo enjoy uploading pictures. It's so fun. wheee. *gulps* There's lit circle meeting later at 1pm. I havent even started anything yet! I feel so unaccomplished. Oh well... at least I've finished my bao zhang collection for CL SIA. So one down, a few left to go. =D
1. Geog Assignment
2. OM Report!
3. Lit Circle
4. CL SIA: huo dong
I guess that's about all. bleahh. I really hope my sister buys me nice long sleeve clothes. =D Oh by the way, the second picture in this post is my cell group leader. JASMINE KONNNNN! HAHHAHAH xP She'll so freak out. HAHHAHAHAH The first picture is Phoebe and I before her bible study! hahahha
Anyway, went out with Ryan yesterday and studied a little at the NATIONAL library. Sian. The study tables were mostly taken up and we only went to the first level. bleah. Then we went to walk around PLAZA SING.
BEN IS IN DENIAL! hahahha
We asked him about something horse, then he kept changing subject and say Ryan and I doing something naughty. hahahhha. SIAO.
-____________________-
Later we watched a movie, GARFIELD2. eh. it's okay la not as CUTE as Jasmine had SCREAMED. hahahahha then we had dinner at crystal jade at Parkway. Then we talked about the OLD times. hahahha then lost track of time and it was 8.40pm! hahahha Oh yeahh. at the cinema, we saw this super YOUNG couple like I think about primary 5 or something. hahahha they were sooo hahahahah bleahh so young. the guy is shorter than me so you can guess how young they were. opps. gotta go. byebye. CIAO`
p.s. see, ALINA, I UPDATED! =D
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7:04 PM
wahhaha more pictures. This first picture is taken at E337 make up cell. heh. =D Wheee then the next one is at aviva open. then the last two at extra training last tuesday. wheee. =D
>> Friday, June 16, 2006
5:03 AM
To Whom It May Concern:I'm sorry that I've offended you with my sensitive and immatured acts, but I'll be a better person. I'm sorry that I chose to let you walk out of my life because I couldn't accept you for who you are but then again I thank you that God would let you forgive me as I've forgiven you. I thank you that you entered my life for a reason even though I didn't exactly cherish you and be tactful towards you. I thank you that you once made me laugh so hard that I would never forget it. I'm sorry but I pray that you'll forgive me. I promise that I'll change but as for our friendship... I'm sorry that it has to go.
>> Friday, June 09, 2006
6:12 AM
PETER GATE!
>> Tuesday, June 06, 2006
8:20 AM
more pictures! and the other three were the ones I took in ITALY! hahha xP
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7:58 AM
WHAHAHA! I've uploaded more pictures. Xp Ahhhh. so tired. I've been doing MATHS WS 9.1
for the past TWO hours. phew. now stuck with the last question!YAY! I <333 Beehiang! I like her CLICKfive album sooo much! Okay I know it's a bit lag now but still I'm in love with click five! hahahha I like the lead singer's vocals whoever that is, that is. (:
I rented MORE VCDS. hahahh! Prime, In Her Shoes and Ice Princess for just $9! It's so much cheaper than to go watch in theatres but I guess the entire point of going to theatres is actually to be with your friends, no point going alone, it's a waste of money!
booo. Had training this morning. My leg was giving me problems. =/ I couldn't walk properly then I ran until I felt my legs going off. =/ Then we played this fun game! (: hahaha Jessica Tan was super funny, she keep saying that the sec ones aren't ta-co!
THAT'S NOT TRUE!
hahahah. Anyway, it was a rather refreshing change aside of the normal training where everything was serious and stuff. Later went to Bishan J8 to have MOS BURGER lunch because Beehiang was DESPERATE for it! hahah so expensive! like one chilli dog cost about 3.40 and it burns my tongue after eating it. I forgot about buying the nice nice milk lemon tea or whatever it is at MOS BURGER. My sister used to work at the Parkway outlet by the way. ahhah. I shall go over to work during the Dec holidays. =D
Oh yeahh! I <333>.< ahahahah okay good night everybody! 
